And who knows why the love you need
will always pass you by.

I just laughed and said goodnight guess it's alright.
Love can sleep even with the sun so bright.

But why, You told me love never fails.

I'm back from Vietnam!
Pictures up soon, promise.

It's over, for good. I made things the way they are now, albeit unintentionally, cos I want to live for the moment. I know this sounds overly selfish and it's a decision I'll come to regret down the road, but I guess viewing from the way we left off, it's better off this way, you and me no longer a "we". I'll overcome this, I know I will. Not to say that I'll forget your love, but I'll tide it through, I always can. I really love(d) you, and I wish you happiness.

I was just IM-ing Janice (sometimes I really wonder how she can be online almost 24/7 while in US, dont need to study or sleep one ah woman?!) after I woke up (at 1pm thank you v much, I only managed to fall asleep at 530am, insomnia kills) and I started telling her my feelings and all, and I think she's really the best person to talk it out with me. She went through the exact same thing and now she's really happy (being single), but I'm not sure if that's what I really want, yet. Can't divulge much here, it's between J and me, but all I can say is that, I really want to be my old self again. I've not been me, and I need all the space and time I need right now to think through what I want to do for myself in future. Cos it's not about anybody else anymore, it's about me. I know this sounds childish and selfish, but seriously, I wouldnt want to lose my dear self while entangling myself in a relationship, I want my lover to love me for who I am.

I love you J, you're the best thing that's ever happened to me, but now's the time for me to decide what I want. I hope you understand.

Mambo and Float Party turned me into Tipsy Goddess, I cannot take it anymore. Slut Dance Slut Dance, we are the Proness!

Hello Hons, we have a new club gang.
Pictures soon!

Right, I guess everyone's right that I need a break.

ZZ someone kick me, hard. I aint no fake buttcheekssss

YJ: The world's moved on without us, everyone's moved on, so we should too.

It was a wake-up call, and one of the things that gave me an excuse to cry my heart out today.

Everyone's moved on, so we should too.

I know after reading this post, whoever's reading this will probably think that I'm the most ridiculously prick, ever. But I'm still going to tell, 'cause I'm not great, but his love's great(ly noble, to me).

I cried when my Mommy told me that the trip to Vietnam was confirmed, like I didnt cry in her face (duh), but I pent up my feelings and I called Justin, and I cried as if Jesus was being crucified right in front of me. I told him how sad I was 'cause I had to miss his Passing Out Parade, and how badly I'd wanted to be there.
Then I cried even more when I started telling him how tired I was from giving tuitions, about how I'm so damn tired of everything.

And then, he chuckled and laughed
and told me everything's fine,
told me all I needed
was a great big hug;
I moved on with the world.